Let Not My Mind Deny The Thought Of God
Thursday, October 30th, 2003, 20:21
Somebody lied to me today, but both he and I Know it: Henk told me today his Thursday meetings are going to end, so I won't be able to continue visiting his psychic hour.
In case you hadn't guessed, Henk is a psychic. He is the guy who helped me realize about the vow I'd made at age eight, to figure out the Cosmos, and tell everyone who will hear about it. I'm glad he did, especially from the viewpoint of where I am now, finishing the novel that will be the culmination of this life's work.
Henk magically appeared as a friend of a friend of a colleague of my wife, in a moment where I desperately needed him. The first night he told me my soul was aligned someway half outside my body, but he wouldn't fix it. Instead, he had me fix it myself! Make-belief, hypnosis, name it what you want, but that night I felt better than I had in years!
Henk held what he called his Thursday meetings, and invited me to come. No entrance fees or anything, although some of us sometimes brought cookies to go with the ever abundant coffee. When one day I offered him fifty euros for his services, he looked at me and merely asked: “Why are you doing this?” in a non-incriminating manner.
Lying on the table, Henk taught me to recognize the flow of energy throughout my body, and he kept trying to teach me to breathe properly. In that, he seemed not to succeed, or did he: I've always been a shallow on-demand breather. Just couldn't stick to his program of deep, belly-based breathing.
And he asked me to write. Write manually, while in fact I dislike my own handwriting. I did it, but for serious writing like this novel I still stick to hammering it out on the keyboard. Maybe my disregard for his lessons is what eventually got him to call it “Class Dismissed!”, but I don't think so.....
One last experiment I remember around that time happened around that time, was an outing to the local kids farm with my family. I was very occupied with my being, and while the kids played, I was sitting on a bench in the Sun. A fly came up to me, and landed on my right leg, just above the knee. I figured, if my vibration was OK, I'd be able to approach it sincerely, without disturbing it.
I moved my left hand, index finger outstretched, to the vicinity of it's bulging faceted eyes, quite slowly. Do you know how hard it is to approach a common housefly from the front, to within one millimeter of it's head? I did succeed however, and we sat there for seconds, face to 'face'.
Finally, I broke the magic by becoming greedy, and carefully nudged its head. The fly got up, and landed just out of range of my hand, as if to say: “OK, I know your boundaries now....”
When I later told Henk about it, he applauded me for having made so much progress. And when he stopped seeing me on Thursdays, he offered his help for anything I might require later on. Well Henk, I'd love to send you this manuscript, but by now I think you will somehow magically get your hands on it when the time comes....
Saturday, April 17th, 2010, 04:42
Today I am somewhat in conflict, but in a good way. I'm going to break my word in a manner of speaking, but only because I know Jolene will forgive me, in a way will even silently applaud me for it!
Just like I Knew Henk, the psychic that helped me at age 35 to remember my vow at age eight, was lying when he told me his Thursday meetings were ending, I just Know Jolene meant just about the complete opposite of what she told me: she asked me not to tell anyone about her life, but I'm sure she'll absolutely not mind that I tell this story anyway, with the proper precautions to achieve what the business end of the world would call 'Plausable Denyability', or in other words, a bit of white lying magic to protect the innocent.
I met Jolene on the train the other day, quite by incident, and very nicely. Somehow, I felt very, very connected to her, even though she turned out to be a person who had an uncanny ability to tell me exactly what kind of a person I am! Or maybe just because of that, because with her, my Know-indicator was on the blink.
But despite the obvious connect, she kept her distance. We did exchange addresses, and over the next few weeks, she phoned me a couple of times, just to hear about how I was doing, and what was up in my life. Jolene felt very awesome, kinda like Selina, even though with her there was this barrier, which both of us kept intact: externally, she was the kind of person I'm not really attracted to, which was aggravated by the fact she tried convince me that our relationship was purely business (which is kind of a dirty word to me).
She claimed she needed help with her computer, and one day, I was invited to provide said help. I traveled there at the appointed hour, and walked the last few hundred meters from the bus to her home, or at least the address she gave me. It was in a well to do neighborhood, all privately owned homes. I rang the bell, and was invited in, only to find myself in a pigsty! I mean, she'd warned me her place was a mess, but I figured it to be like mine sometimes is, for lack of futuristic domestic droids. This however looked far worse, and my first instinct, which I immediately followed, was to offer her to help clean things up a bit. She wouldn't hear of it however, claiming she'd gotten me in there to help her along where the computer was concerned.
So I sat down, amidst a flurry of newspaper clippings, partially opened mail, and other 'messy' things. Nothing really gross, just this consistent wrapping of disorder that I could easily ignore in order to get my work done. She wanted a general cleanup of her computer, like I've done dozens of times for myself and others. Defrag, cleanup, remove unused software, install basic stuff needed to do proper work, you know the drill. So did I, or so I thought...
I'd seen she used Outlook for her mail, but also observed that her Word and Excel where complaining about needing an installer CD to be usable. I usually resort to public domain software wherever possible, and so gave her the option of having OpenOffice installed, instead of those office applications. She agreed, not realising like I should have, that her Outlook was part of the Microsoft Office I was aiming to replace. We chatted on, while she made us something to eat in a kitchen that to me would have been barely unacceptable as starting point for cooking activities.
It was a home-brewn soup, as she called it, quite tasty, but too many unknown ingredients to be on my list of favorite dishes. I somewhat too ardently refused seconds, but we parted as friends. Then, after I'd gotten home, she called that her E-mail no longer worked. Realizing my colossal blunder I gladly took the blame, but was relieved she didn't expect me to get back on the train right that instance. I did offer to attempt a rescue using TeamViewer, so I could take over her system from home, but being a self-proclaimed digifobe, she declined that. She did get another friend to call me later, to dissolve the matter via phone.
But then there's the little incongruities that trigger you to the weirdness of the situation: though Jolene claimed she was afraid of computers, I counted no less than three systems in her home: the computer I needed to work on, an IBM Thinkpad carelessly lying around, and a Compaq DeskPro system in one of the bedrooms. Add to that the question she'd asked me about purchasing Val's old laptop, and I guessed myself in the twilight zone.
Speaking of zones: even though she and I were in the zone constantly, I was very near the edge of my comfort zone while in that place. To me, a home needs to be somewhat cleaner to be comfortable, but it was Jolene's home, so I kept abiding by her will, and tried not to disturb the flurry of newspaper clippings that so cozily surrounded me.
Yesterday, I mailed her to inquire if her friend's rescue operation had succeeded. I got back a mail, so it obviously had: she said she wasn't angry or disappointed, but told me not to mail, phone, or try to contact her otherwise.
Now I could mourn the loss of a friend, but this sounded way more like: “School's over, class dismissed!”
Final sync: I just found out Rush are on their “Time Machine Tour”! How very syncy that they are mentioned in various places in this Now Time Tale......
I wrote an article a few days ago not realizing
the stir it would have generated. The article was titled Enough with this “Blissed” out Agenda. There were
many who felt inspired by it and there were a few who came at me as if I
was the Antichrist. Those who were inspired were those who apparently
had drawn the same conclusions as I had but had never really voiced it
at least not in an open forum. I however voiced it yet this was not the
first time. No I did not play it safe. I recognize that many are
hungry for something else but when all that seem to be there is the
same old same old then some will hang in there in silence and some will
retreat quietly to themselves. One focus point of the article
addressed the art of channeling and its followers. Those who were
annoyed with the article seemed to be those who avid supporters of
channeling or those who simply just did not agree for whatever their
Before going further with this
article let me say very clearly once again that all of it is valid this
cannot be stressed enough. We are operating according to what we find
essential and appropriate. This also does not mean that one is superior
over the other or that one is lesser or greater or that one is chosen
and the other not. The writing of that article was all by design and
everyone who read it did so for a reason regardless of the opinion
which was formed. There are no mistakes! It is advisable that one ask
themselves why they were prompted to read it…and I must ask myself why I
wrote it and why did I choose to put myself out there in this manner.
Well I have certainly had to grow a thick layer of skin since then. Was
I upset when I wrote the article? No. It is the reason for the
humorous style in approaching the subject matter.
have learned that to play it safe when it comes to my own evolution
and what I am feeling inside is to deny myself the opportunity to grow
by leaps and bounds… to avoid misinterpretation let me clarify that
this statement applies to me; I cannot speak for anyone else. However I
realize the manner in which playing it safe can limit one to a
predictable set of possibilities. Predictability is a safe space, it is
the familiar. It is why many find it challenging to let go of the past
despite the challenges of the past, none the less the past provides a
reference point for predictable outcomes. This creates the rewind
effect. Every next moment is then created from the patterns of the past
with slight variations to the experience. Others will say but
“sometimes you need to play it safe” that could be defined perhaps as
diplomacy. Yes I agree so it is then up to the individual to determine
when to apply the brakes and when to hit the gas.
We are all very protective of our holograms by that I
mean our individual construct of reality. It is the reason why we are
ready to defend it. Our holograms are guarded by our egos. We come out
with heavy artillery as we are our own military for our reality; we
must fight to protect it at all cost from all foreign invaders. We
stand guard ready to zone in on that one word or that one look that
signals opposition, this of course activates the defense system. We are
programmed to survive; our survival program is running 24/7 it is why
most of our society operates on a daily basis in the survival mode, the
“fight or flight” mode. This entire process is duplicated in the
overall hologram; countries fighting to defend themselves from foreign
invaders. Again much misunderstanding has set off many wars. It’s
always about a fight to defend our county, our land, our territory, our
religious/spiritual beliefs, our culture and of course our planet from
foreign invaders. This is what we all do, again this is not a
judgment this is an observation. Defend it if you will for in that
moment you will see the very thing that I am speaking of. In truth and
in fact what are we defending? Do we really know what it is that we are
defending? Yet all of it is the nature of the experience on the
planet. The entire spectrum of experiences navigates us through our
goal in exploring the full range of possibilities in being human. So in
other words being in survival mode or not being in survival mode is ok
either way. We are experiencing the range according to what is needed.
I too found myself wanting to defend myself, defend the article, but
from what? Would I be defending myself from not playing it safe? The
experience was what I created for myself. There was no hiding; it was a
matter of owning my expression. It gave me new dimension into myself
and where I go from here.
It is the physical
part of us that does the reacting. These bodies are the vehicle
designed for the processing of these experiences, it processes a
chemical response; electrochemical impulses. These bodies are designed
to “survive”, to protect itself from invaders. We have however turned
over complete control to these bodies and so much of our thoughts and
actions are run by the “survival” system in place. We are on autopilot.
It is why our diets can destroy the body, it is because the frequency
of the thought field and belief systems are of an equivalent vibration
and therefore unable to override or penetrate the frequency patterns of
the substance being ingested. We have stabilized foods to particular
frequencies as can be observed in its form and its chemical makeup. We
are unable to un-stabilize the molecular patterns to the realization
that “there is no spoon, it is you that bends”. This is what we are all
working towards regardless of the road we may take, regardless of what
we are aware of. It is about coming to the realization that there is no
spoon. This analogy is supported by breakthroughs in quantum physics.
It is the observer that creates the illusion of the bending spoon. Here
is a quote from The Holographic Universe by Michael Talbot
“University of London physicist David Bohm, for
example, believes Aspect’s findings imply that objective reality does
not exist, that despite its apparent solidity the Universe is
at heart a phantasm, a gigantic and splendidly detailed hologram.
To understand why Bohm makes this startling assertion, one must first
understand a little about holograms.
is a three-dimensional photograph made with the aid of a laser. To
make a hologram, the object to be photographed is first bathed in the
light of a laser beam. Then a second laser beam is bounced off the
reflected light of the first and the resulting interference pattern
(the area where the two laser beams co-mingle) is captured on film.
When the film is developed, it looks like a meaningless swirl of light
and dark lines. But as soon as the developed film is illuminated by
another laser beam, a three-dimensional image of the original object
The three dimensionality of such images is not the only
remarkable characteristic of holograms. If a hologram of a rose is
cut in half and then illuminated by a laser, each half will still be
found to contain the entire image of a rose. Indeed if the halves are
divided again, each snippet of film will always be found to contain a
smaller but intact version of the original image. Unlike normal
photographs, every part of a hologram contains all the information
possessed by the whole.”
It is clear to me
that a number of people will agree to this realization yet in the same
breath this will be contradicted. This recognition of this
phantom/holographic design of reality clearly imposes the realization
that creation is like a child playing hide and go seek with itself.
Growing up basically like as an only child I understand what it is to
play by myself and get awfully creative. I would pretend that the
bushes were my children or that they were students in a classroom and I
was the teacher. This is what we do, we are here to imagine the most
outlandish experience possible but of course it has to be believable
even for the creator of the experience, perhaps more so for the
creator. It’s your game, your hologram. I am part of your hologram and
you mine. I need you to be here at this time and so do you if you are
engaged in any aspect of my experience and I in yours.
Let us further examine the importance of our individual
creations. Let us first recognize that we can’t go “wrong” (for
lack of another word) with what we create. You are obviously
creating and making choices according to concepts and ideas which would
support those decisions. Perhaps in order to create your world five
years from now in this moment you will create an experience which will
establish an outcome that will influence choices, options, decisions
which will present themselves in the future. It is the way we roll into
the next experience. The format of our world has always revolved
around themes. Themes represent cycles. The New Age movement represents
another theme in a particular period of human evolution/expansion.
What happens however is due to the nature of our design we very easily
become locked into these patterns and themes. We become comfortable
once again with the familiar, this becomes just another programming.
Repetition without dimension is programming; where one moves according
to a specific set of guidelines without deviation. Such behavior or
rituals are also essential in creating discipline and some guidelines
and boundaries until one feels self assured enough to hold your own and
deviate or add dimension to the disciplines. When one begins to trust
him/herself the guidance unfolds from within. Whatever methods ou route
we choose is then simply a stepping stone. It is clear that we are
privy to and have access to the full spectrum of creation which moves
as streams of data. This data takes the shape of the visible world and
that which is invisible to us according to the boundaries placed on
It is evident that in the
overall picture creation does not appear to play it safe otherwise we
would have been limited or bridled in the creation of our
holograms/private reality. It however has a blueprint or patterns of
the design to be constructed. Everything is allowed so that we may have
the full potential of the human experience. However for every action
there is a reaction. What we create will bear fruit, the vibration of
that fruit will determine much of one’s experiences. There is no good or
bad there is only the vibration of the reaction. This is what we must
contend with, the reaction. Another point to keep in mind is that
everything that we do we do for ourselves. We do it for the payoff;
again this is not a good or a bad thing. I am writing this article
because it is helping me to sort through some thoughts and ideas
floating around in my mind as are all my articles and my book. We want
to believe that we do it for others but in truth it is the feeling that
is derived from it. Sharing becomes a great outlet. When we do things
for our children or family or a stranger, it’s a great feeling! When we
do things that are upsetting to others there is still a payoff; you
needed to feel the way you feel after all was said and done. It does not
matter what it is in the end we do it for ourselves. We get that same
feeling when someone else does something that is what we call
“shameful” underneath it all we feel elevated as we could not have done
that, “we are not that kind of person”. How do I know this because I
have had to examine myself and to my amazement I realize the payoff
derived from all of it. I could say much about the role of
victimization but we will save that for another day. I don’t write or
share the information because I believe that the world needs saving or
that I have the answers I do because it frees me to be me regardless of
the response. It allows me to experience my weaknesses and my
strengths, it allows me to stand firmly in my ever expanding knowing
and if along the way lives are changed because of it then I am ever so
grateful for being allowed to be part of one’s evolution. My workshops
and my lectures allow me the same experience. It is about my growth and
that is how I contribute to this beautiful dance I own that it is
about me and so I don’t have to hide or play it safe in most instances.
Most people play it safe because change is
devastating. As I said previously we each have a model of reality to
which we live our lives. When an attitude, people, place, thing or
belief is shifted it becomes a chemical reaction. We are addicted to
our lives it is how it is held together by the chemicals and hormones
coursing through us. Shifting anyone of these, even moving a chair
causes adjustments to be made to our hologram or basically we may have
to create a new hologram. This can be scary especially when your entire
reality sits on the foundation of your spiritual belief structure,
everything is supported by the other . Who will guide us? What will we
do? We are wandering into uncharted territory, will there be a guide
there waiting for me, who will be there to let me know that I am going
the right way. Yes it can be a jolt but the one thing that I am famous
for saying is that “no matter what, you will live”, even when you
appear to die you live. Another aspect of thought that can certainly
provide support is the realization that you are not running out of time
as time is an essential illusion in order for us to have this linear
experience. If there is no spoon; and at heart the universe is but a
phantom then there is no such thing as distance and without the idea of
distance there can’t be time or gravity for that matter. There is no
here nor there, all that exists is this moment and everything else is a
speculation. This is where the idea of “time” is formed in the
speculation. Another quote from The Holographic Universe by Michael
“Bohm believes the reason subatomic
particles are able to remain in contact with one another regardless of
the distance separating them is not because they are sending some sort
of mysterious signal back and forth, but because their
separateness is an illusion. He argues that at some deeper
level of reality such particles are not individual entities, but are
actually extensions of the same fundamental something”.
During the writing of the Holographic Canvas did I know
who David Bohm was or Gary Zucave author of the Dancing Wu li Masters,
no I did not but as I wrote and it was time to form the book my inner
guidance directed me to information that would support what I had come
to understand on my own. I understood the nature of reality before
knowing the words “quantum physics”. It was what I asked for, I asked to
know from within myself and to my surprise scientists confirm this
possibility in the above quote. It was necessary to have scientific
information to support my own conclusion as it is evident that people
are more confident of your claims. On the back of my book The
Holographic Canvas it states “like the single cell of a plant our
history is encoded in us”. We are the single cell and the entire plant
all at once! We are streams of data! We are the information itself! We
have access to all aspects of knowledge the question is whether we are
in a space to trust that inner knowing or not. We most often must build
ourselves up to that space of trust. It is for this reason that every
step we take is our pathway leading to endless possibilities. To walk
with no boundaries is to no longer fear ones actions for one has become
aware of the significance of the reaction. So the question is
do you play it safe or do you go for it.
©2010 Sonia Barrett
While stepping back and becoming part of that larger perspective is part of the old soul experience, there's a not so fine line there. When that stepping back is done to create a denial of what's being felt in the present than that is not particularly useful.
Our suggestion about how any person can view their life in terms of choice in a way that's empowering would be to instead of looking at things at the macro level to look at the micro level and to connect emotion to every moment:
As I pick up my coffee cup to take a sip, what am I feeling? Am I feeling energized? Am I feeling frustrated? Am I feeling hurried because I need to gulp down a whole cup of coffee before I leave for my day? Am I feeling complacent? Am I feeling bored?
That's only a small fraction of the kinds of feelings that someone can feel in the simple act of picking up coffee cup to take a sip. The more you are present and aware of what you feel in a given moment, the more you will feel connected to your own empowerment regarding choice.
Let's examine this more. We will go back to the coffee cup analogy. In that act of picking up the coffee cup, you have all kinds of choices. Perhaps they might be in some ways dependent upon or connected to other factors. If you're in a hurry, then you might pick up the coffee cup in a certain forceful way. If your mind is engaged in something else and you reach out with a fumbling hand because you decide you want a sip of coffee while you're staring at your laptop screen, that's another way of being present in that moment.
A small word of caution: while it is possible to be mindful and aware of what you were feeling in every given moment, that again is not necessarily useful to the human experience. In other words, you can get anal about it: "I'm sitting in a chair. What am I feeling now? I'm leaning back a little. What am I feeling now? I glance out the window. What I am feeling now? ... " And you can get caught up, lost in the midst of intellectualizing. You would be trying to feel instead of allowing the feelings to be present. There's a balance.
Not everyone that we're speaking to can join in what's referred to as an "old soul perspective" of stepping back and becoming distant. And that's okay - it's not necessary in order to feel empowered in your own life or feel good about what's going on in the world.
When we are referring to empowerment in this instance, we mean feeling that you yourself have the ability to make changes in your life as you see fit. The very first step in that is assessing where you are in a given moment. This is why we talk about the micro level, or bringing in an element of mindfulness.
The most useful way to apply that concept is when you feel the "big feelings" - when you feel a fair amount of emotion. That's when you rest in that and simply ask "what am I feeling?" from within your presence - from outside your intellect. Allow the feeling to be there while you rest in it.
Question: I recently had an experience where my child was misbehaving and getting very angry, screaming and not listening. I felt a very strong impulse to spank him until he "behaved", but then I caught myself because I know that is very bad for him. I guess my own childhood pain came out - I don't know. But then I got very tense and pushed away the feelings, but I still noticed him being very frightened of me and seemingly feeling threatened. I guess by stuffing away those violent feelings, I was also being unloving. This relates to the nature of choice to me - both were fairly automatic. Either I behave like my parents did to me or I try to repress and do the opposite, but somehow create a similar dynamic. I didn't feel I had any other choice.
This situation is a moment of big emotion. The parent, feeling all this welling up inside them, has a moment to create that change from how they themselves were treated as a child. So the parent can assess this, starting with the knowing of "I'm feeling this big emotion."
Realize first that immediate action is not necessary. In other words, following through with that spanking energy is not necessary. Removing or changing the emotion is not necessary. If there is a big emotion there then this is a time for the parent to sit with that emotion for a moment without taking action. Allow it to be there. The action arises from believing that the emotion can't be there. It wants to move through and out. Tensing is another way of saying that the emotion cannot be there - and it also communicates to the child that their own mirroring emotion should not be there.
Again, this is an invitation for the parent to truly be with that emotion without moving into action. This "action" can be external or internal, such as tensing or rationalizing. Understand that this moving into action is likely a pattern for that person that came from their own childhood (such as with the pattern of self destruction). Whether or not they tense themselves and try to try to deter any tendencies that feel negative, or they go ahead and strike the child: those are two opposites of the same spectrum of non-acceptance. The trick them would be to simply sit with the emotion and to let it be there without taking action.
Once the parent does that, other perceptions begin to come up: realizations that this is a connection to my own life. Realizations that I don't need to perpetuate this with my child, that there are other choices available now that the need to push an experience away has dissolved. Emotions are simply energy. They are an experience. From our perspective, all emotions are good emotions, as energy itself has no value judgments attached. But people can feel disempowered by emotions when they have not been encouraged to actually feel them. Surrendering to the experience of an emotion is a tremendously empowering act.
The child's experience is a little different. A child is naturally feeling a little bit disempowered, especially in western cultures, because of the physical dynamic that already exists. In other words, they're a small person and surrounded by big people who make the rules, provide the structure and play the "authority figure". There's already an atmosphere of not feeling that they have a choice. But also within the child is a beautiful invitation to create a sense of choice in the midst of what could feel like a disempowering situation. The choice is about feeling. The child too has the impulse to take action: Do I cower and cover my head? Do I run away? Do I try to smile to defuse the situation? Those are all potential actions. But the child too can simply be with the emotion.
A child naturally does this at a very early age, but in the western
culture is largely educated away from this. This is true in the modern
world in many Eastern cultures as well. The role of "parental
authority" is a factor in 90% of the cultures around your world now.
We can offer a practical exercise beyond the theoretical which we've already given you that can increase your ability to feel connected to the choices in your own life. We've already talked about stepping back while feeling and allowing yourself to feel when a big emotion comes up. Again, that's useful situation by situation as it comes up for you.
In order to assist, provide support and create a pattern of energy movement within you now that can become a foundation for you whenever those big emotions come up so that you can practice what we've already told you, we can offer this.
This exercise is best if done seated and your spine is relatively
straight. If you are accustomed to a particular meditation posture this
is a good opportunity to take a particular posture but it's not
necessary; you can be seated in a chair.
[We offer the audio
recording of this with beautiful background music which you may download
to aid you in this exercise.]
Closing your eyes, take a deep breath and allow it to float out if you. Take another deep breath, hold it for a moment and allow it too to float out if you. As you release that breath, imagine your conscious awareness expanding. Every time you breathe in and breathe out your awareness expands. In other words, rather than being tightly placed inside your head, perhaps, it moves to a space outside yourself. You can start with a space that extends about a foot away from your body.
Just as you breathe out, allow your breath to float into that space about a foot on all sides of your body and allow your awareness to extend to that distance. It's especially important to bring your awareness up over your head to that distance.
Now you can imagine that your awareness has expanded to a place that's up above and slightly outside of your physical body. This causes you to have the sensation that your movements would be slower, more flowing than you are accustomed to. You feel wiser, perhaps.
Understand that within the space you may also incorporate all your emotion world by stepping up and back and out just slightly. You have the opportunity to include an awareness of more of yourself than you are accustomed. Yet this is not a place of overwhelm. This is where you can be with those big emotion's without being overwhelmed by them.
If the idea of choice and empowerment has been particularly troubling to you - in other words if at times in your life you have felt buffeted by the winds of chance - then we would suggest taking a few moments of each day to perform this exercise. Understand that when those big emotions come up for you this is the place that you can rest in while you are allowing yourself to be present within those emotions. And when we say "be present with" we are not suggesting that you become detached from and intellectual about them. But we are suggesting that from this space you can see them for what they are. You can allow them into you without creating a need for action.
by Lisa Renee
ES News- April
The Mother Arc
For those of us participating with the 2012 Ascension Timeline as awakened Starseed's or Indigo's, this last cycle of the "Galactic Underworld" has been intensely transformative in bringing the next level of heightened awareness to perceptible knowledge. Since last November the Inner Revelations abound with much information surfacing that has continually tested our personal discernment in every way. Most of us have been feeling overloaded or overwhelmed with some major life lesson attempting to integrate us more fully into accepting the incoming transformational energies. These incoming energies are above and beyond the most evolutionary frequency waves our planet and human beings have ever been exposed to. This sequential series of Magnetic Propulsion Waves are of such magnitude it is forcing us as a species to transform, adapt and evolve -- in order to change from within.
We are at the midpoint
cycle of the Sixth night of the Galactic Underworld which shifts into
cycle of the Seventh day in November 2010. A new platform architecture
planet has been required and prepared meticulously to be reconnected to
planetary light body by Interdimensional Guardian groups.
(Guardian groups are of all levels of consciousness agreeing to hold their life force at ONE level of focused consciousness agreement - "Ascension Liberation For ALL". This is carried out in accordance to the free will choices of each being respected although each being answers to the consequence of its choices. Genetic rehabilitation and re-education of the laws in order to live in Harmony with the Universe are freely shared with all sincere seekers. Guardians are embodied as physical humans, as well as other species and races that are all a part of the covenant to serve "The Law of One". These are the Natural Laws of God and the Mechanics of Creation, and are the mathematical physics that govern the time space fields in our Universe, not a man made mental belief system of judgment. )
This was in order for the planetary body to handle these new forces being reconnected to our access at this density level. It also has SPECIFIC purpose to buffer the cosmic energies as they filter in so they create a minimal amount of stress in the tectonic plates and the surface crust of the earth. It is no surprise as we have been aware for a long time that when the magnetic fields shift into other proportionate scales it creates many weather pattern and climatic anomalies. Our planet has seen an accelerated increase of weather (i.e. floods, hail) or volcanic-earthquake changes quite rapidly in the past quarter leading up to this event.
Some of us with the job of planetary gridworker have been acting as energy placement holders ( like an acupuncture point for the planet body) for this 9D merkabic system until it was stabilized in the planetary body merkabic structure through the earth core. This is like understanding a higher octave Merkabic Structure, the 9D Quadra Merkabic Architecture has been overlaid into (dna bonded) into our planetary light body (or its energy blueprint architecture).
The Golden Chalice
That means for April we should get a break from the high level intensity of shadow clearings and should start to feel the new energy platform supporting our foundation so this group of us is not feeling such an energy burden in our personal bodies. The 9 D chakra has been referred to as the "Mouth of God" and its opening is exactly at the back of the neck where the skull lays on top of the spine. It connects to the medulla oblongata and the reticular formation of the brain and spinal cord. This area esoterically has been called the Golden Chalice for it is the Occipital Cup that holds the Cosmic Intelligence or Wisdom. It is a literal brain rewiring ( spiritual body activation) in order to hold and be receptive to the "Golden Chalice" of Universal Knowledge.
Many of us are becoming aware that we are being connected to another "language", another octave, another dimensional layer of accessing knowledge. There are waves of us accelerated into this spiritual body development of accessing Universal Knowledge from the Golden Chalice as it activates processes in the base of our brain. We may not comprehend it quite yet, as it involves a language of "code", "syntax" or "archetype". However our sensory faculties are aware of something that is changing the "field" and our relationships to everything in it.
Knowledge and the wisdom required to be responsible for that knowledge comes with the great purification of "Fire". This purification fire has been rearranging the cells and for some of us it manifested into symptoms of head and sinus infection, throat and lung congestion and other physical ailments. The dropping density requirement has been feeling very intense to prepare our bodies to hold what is coming next.
Many of us have been isolated, sequestered and sleeping a lot over the last quarter quite busily building this structure as well as step down fields that act as circuit boards to transduce and moderate high frequencies in these various energetic circulatory complexes. Also this is the same 9D portal area of Guardian projects rehabilitating the mental body fragments of the male/Michael consciousness grids. A tremendous amount of change is underway now.
The Mother Arc
This has also been evidenced lately as the planetary body is shaking and quaking lately to reposition itself for an entirely new Magnetic Field Grid Network System to power up new levels of the 13th Pillar or The Mother Arc.
The Guardians are calling this aspect of Mother Aquamarine Ray energy, a Magnetic force powering up in our Earth Core (through the newly reconnected levels of the 9D Quadra Merkabic structure) - The Mother Arc. The awareness and systematic dismantling of several obsolete controlled architectures in the planetary field have allowed this to come on line. It is similar to understand we have poked a hole in the mind controlled frequency fence and reconnected our handshake hub to reconnect with the Mother Arc. It is through the Mother's Perfect Proton Seed (or Cosmic Egg) that Creation can Heal Itself to its Original Divine Blueprint.
A new "Mother" language/vibration and its seed codes began transmission from the planet's newly activated Australian portal network and its reconnected portions of the horizontal "Golden Eagle" grid system. From this vantage point of human reality the seed codes are being called the "Universal Grandmother Turtle Codes". These codes have been embodied, protected and hidden by the Aboriginal and Indigenous cultures of the earth for eons of time. These are like a God Inoculation and a surprise revelation as to what is beginning to transpire in consciousness fields --an event that has never transpired before in the history of creation! (It cannot be emphasized enough that God consciousness has some surprises up its sleeve.... transmitted through our bodies....as the countdown to the final conflict continues..)
Australian Seaboard from Brisbane to Uluru ( Ayer's Rock) is acting as
the main portal magnetic battery generators that is gaining charge in
magnetic hub located by the monument of Uluru. The Guardians explain
similar as many other planetary pyramidal structures, it is being used
to mark a
major portal system gateway on the planet. (Just as the pyramids were
tributes to dead Pharaohs they were specific gateways marking access to
dimensions and visible from outer space) Uluru is a power point for a
Network of dormant or inactive ancient gateways, systems or hubs and
"placed" there as a marker by the God creators of this system. The
Creation and Guardians of the Universal Time Matrix were known as the
Dragon lineages, and many of the Aurora fields are coming from which is
esoterically known as the Dragon lines. They say Uluru was placed there
Dragon races of the next Universe. (This is not to be confused with
Draconis or Reptilian races) This is primarily being utilized to begin
up a new level of the Arc Gate Systems on the planet. This ignition has
relevance to the Mother Arc ( 13th Pillar Mother Magnetic Aqua Flame)
the Giza Pyramid and its related circulatory grid systems. It appears
timeline for activation is geared for this June Solstice.
The Magnetic Field of the Mother Arc ( the beginning and end of creation back into the zero point) is connecting to magnetically charge up Uluru to power up the Giza/Pyramidal dipole activity located in Egypt. This activity is similar to switching on a generator that is to POWER UP these dormant vortexes/grid points.
( See wiki reference: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Piezoelectricity ( http://app.expressemailmarketing.com/get.link?linkid=2043934&subscriberid=68365363&campaignid=545041&linkurl=http%3a%2f%2fen.wikipedia.org%2fwiki%2fPiezoelectricity )
Piezo electric conductor- it's been clarified that's what's happening on the planet is the " squeeze" effect from the compression that is required to ignite and propel the magnetic charge transduction. This effect creates all these earthquakes in the field as the shifting of the tectonic plates rearrange to accommodate these new charges and the fields they create)
The phase beginning now is like a "New Year" as we
are entering an elevated space available from the additional Underworld
since November. Hallelujah for - She has Risen!
Michael /Male Principle Consciousness Healing Continues
As we are
well aware, the old energy architecture that impedes the new
structures from connecting are in the process of being demolished. As a
the soul fragments and the cellular memory are also cleared from the
matrix. This is not an invisible process of a God figure waving his wand
sky, it is the agreed upon mission and life work of the collective
Starseed or Indigo. It is through embodied polarity integration and the
rehabilitation of the dark forces (absent of light and ignorant of the
this process can actually happen. That is why we must face the darkness,
our fears as we commit to serve as the embodied representative of God
order to be the ultimate Alchemist. Polarity Integration is Alchemy.
one of the most confused aspects of belief in the New Age awareness -
deny that darkness exists. Denial breeds deception and then manipulation
very forces you deny as existing.)
Most of this is transpiring at the holographic blueprint level within the anti particle fields. (We will see more of these changes manifested in the material world over the next two years specifically) There never exists judgment in what structure is demolished or rehabilitated in order to exist within a higher integrity of harmony with the Natural Laws of God. Only that which holds the integrity of the organic living light of the Eternal Supply of Source is left standing as the Truth.
Given the information this month on the necessity of a new connector to the 9D Planetary Merkabic structure being built - it is the same portal and dimensional area of Guardian projects rehabilitating the mental body fragments of the Male/AA Michael consciousness described last month. This clearly is ongoing to integrate and merge the "Unity" consciousness fields where there has been "Patriarchal Domination" propagated through distorted or controlled holographic programs.(Remember that "controlled" means inorganic, it means another consciousness outside of the reality decided to interfere and manipulate with the organic and natural evolution of a species)
We have been witnessing systematic Male bloodline clearing through the 12 Tribes of Genetic Seeding of the Human Race since the AA Michael Matrix began dismantling and clearing genetic memory in the 3-6-9 dimensional fields. (as mentioned last month Males in these bloodlines or energetically named have the most radical symptoms for Ancestral and Pathcutting clearing) These bloodline histories are being re-patterned and cleared in Triads as stemming from the Family of Michael Consciousness as the Patriarchal or "Grandfather" Lineage of the Masculine. The House of Kings, starting with King David most recently has been especially prominent in clearing the cellular memory fields existing within the planetary history. The House of David is especially important now to the Guardians as the Three Kings in the House of David -- Saul , David and Solomon are the last bloodline that hold the rightful Priest-King of Benevolence, they are the last line of the embodied Kings that held the "Rods" of God Source. It ended with Solomon and it will open again with Solomon, as the "Shield of Solomon" is the hosting shield of our source code embodiment work for this planet called "The Avatar of Ascension".
The Avatar of Ascension Ignites
We are a Universal Group Consciousness experiment of genetic "Unity in Diversity" relearning how to reconnect into our Source origins. Some of us act as energy placement holders, some of us do the ancestral pathcutting and transmuting for the mass consciousness fields, some of us are the midwife's of the birthing or passing souls, some of us are teachers or healers, some of us birth the new consciousness children, some of us are the architects, some of us are the Galactic polarity integrators. There is an incredibly diverse amount of genetic material and unique energy signatures embodied in this Living Light Library of Planet Earth. There is no value difference given although we should learn to respect each unique role as a part of the One. We are a group consciousness of Unity in Diversity.
Once you have committed to embody the Guardian Consciousness, (or it is your blueprint) you may be required to play all of the roles if your destiny path is one of Stewardship. Stewardship and Leadership roles in the new consciousness fields are now required to be a path of self energetic mastery. This newsletter is servicing that smaller niche of cultivating Human Guardian Consciousness through informed awareness and by supporting the energetic integration necessary to be an embodied container of the Truth Vibration/God Spark. This is a frequency requirement to participate as a Steward with the Host Shields through the Avatar of Ascension. One must have mastered the Self to a degree that Inner Source Sustainability is embodied in the physical reality. Obviously the more embodied Stewards we have - the easier this process is for ALL of US.
Polarity integration through life experience is
the Soul Transmutation Alchemy that is required to physically embody
Source Sustainability. One must transcend judgment through neutrality,
ignore the polarity of forces. Ignorance of these forces otherwise
spiritual righteousness, false glamour and its demonic delusion to take
Inner Source Sustainability means you have no need to create attachment cords, control circumstantial outcomes or engage in karmic relationships that energetically feed off of something external to yourself.
This means you commit to not being emotionally or energetically parasitic/vampiric to anything external to yourself, and that you self contain your personal energies and attempt to be completely responsible for them.
Our group planetary consciousness has been traversing another in depth sensing of the Underworld energies (through the portal of the Astral Plane) in order to heal and unify the collective emotional body of the planet, therefore reconnecting and healing the human being's group soul and its heart center.
In order to heal, one must be able to "feel". (This is clarified by having an ability to access the soul matrix function of "Higher Sensory Perception" which distinguishes between "Cellular Knowing" impulses, rather than the "Linear Analytics" that characterize the 3D mental body functions) Emotional distortions (2D and 4D Astral Plane Damage) needs to be first "realized", then "witnessed" in order to be "synthesized" into a higher frequency and harmonic alignment. This is how individual and planetary DNA is recoded and healed through the energy blueprinting architecture, through higher light, sound frequency arranged in tones of scalar wave arrangements. This is the God composition -- known as the "Music of the Spheres". Our God parent has returned to show us how to create beautifully harmonically arranged music that allows us to merge with the Higher Kingdoms of God. This way we become in harmony with the Universal laws and in harmony with ourselves. (See: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Musica_universalis ( http://app.expressemailmarketing.com/get.link?linkid=2043935&subscriberid=68365363&campaignid=545041&linkurl=http%3a%2f%2fen.wikipedia.org%2fwiki%2fMusica_universalis ) )
This is the Avatar of Ascension Unity Field, it harmonizes conflict by holding the Power of One in the Core Being as the Ultimate Truth. It is a group consciousness field that will support many of us to move to higher levels of consciousness that have been limited through genetic or ancestral patterns buried in our flesh. It is the beginning of a group field "re-encryption" process at the elemental vehicle level, ( physical body) the level of planetary raw material that makes our physical flesh. It is to begin bringing the possibility of freedom to the flesh from the genetic manipulation that has been controlling the elementals on this planet. This is being supported by ES community projects and by the Ascension Hosts of Crystal Matrix and Aurora.
In the closing of our lengthy transmission, we choose the archetypal principle of Temperance to meditate upon and serve as a reminder for our concluding timeline theme. Much skill at neutrally applying "Temperance" is required through this current planetary Rite of Passage. Temperance is the Law of Verification that stands at the pinnacle, the crux of making a personal major life choice, in order to integrate fully what has been learned on the life journey. It forces us to make hard decisions based on what we now know to be our personal truth. Through the tempering of Soul through its many challenges, we become increasingly able to embody Soul (God) Essence. We have a choice to forfeit that knowledge through fear and if so -- we will continue to undergo more of the same static patterns of life experience until the learning is complete. It is that completion ( through polarity integration) that alchemically molds you into the embodiment of the true nature of your God Essence. This is the task at hand.
Some questions to ponder this month : Can you remain on the pathway despite challenges to your faith? What have you learned spiritually that you can integrate neutrally and apply it practically to your life? Are you willing to accept that in order to serve God - you will be continually purified?
More on Temperance: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Temperance_(Tarot_card) ( http://app.expressemailmarketing.com/get.link?linkid=2043936&subscriberid=68365363&campaignid=545041&linkurl=http%3a%2f%2fen.wikipedia.org%2fwiki%2fTemperance_(Tarot_card) )
As a personal note it is my inspiration to serve what is true humanity, that which is our birthright of sovereignty through Unity consciousness. That which has happened to this earth is not human. I continually challenge and provoke the reader's belief systems by sharing direct experiences from the Guardian consciousness perspective, of which is through the human lens of attempting to live in Harmony with the Universe. My human being dislikes conflict and yet I have learned that in order to answer to Stewardship and Service - it is inevitable. I do not like to be in a controversial position, but I feel a moral, ethical and spiritual obligation to my brothers and sisters to share all that I have been given. This is in order to break free from the constraints and controls that may be limiting the God Spark from embodying. I do not have Oath for everyone to Love me, I have Oath to Love and Serve God. As a result beings that choose this are controversial figures, provoking both great Love and hate in the amplified polarity of this distorted hologram. Please take which that supports your resonance to Own your Personal Truth, and discard the rest.
For those of you new to this material, I cannot tell you what you want to hear and lull you to sleep in complacent dreams. This is non-negotiable spirituality and you must rise to your internal and spiritual responsibility to live your spirit in every way or you will have great consequence. With all of my heart and might I choose to empower you in the pathway of integration, so that the brilliance of your internal light can be fed upon no more, and each can contain the divine birthright of infinite and eternal God Supply. Please read the entire Newsletter Series from inception if you are looking to answer questions around this material.
Thank you to our growing and expanding Guardian Family willing to be disciplined and self contained in order to embody the Power of the One for the All.
We are in this together and until next....Stay in the luminosity of your Avatar Heart Path! Be Gentle with your hearts and each other.
© 2010, Lisa Renee
This ES Monthly News Article reflects the Guardian Perspective of the Ascension Timeline (2012 Timeline) as support, both energetically and informationally, for the Galactic Families of Starseeds and the Indigo Races. This Spiritual Family has accepted the Guardianship role to support the foundation of Cosmic Citizenship as an evolutionary model for this planet and humanity, and this is a level of earth based advocacy designed for this specific group. There is absolutely no value difference given on the role each being has chosen for its expression. The Guardian Groups mission directive is rehabilitation of the hologram, repairing its energetic architecture (dna), embodying the Ascended Human Protoform, supplying informational context on Ascension dynamics and Exopolitic (ET) Agendas and reeducating both human and non-human's to be congruently aligned to the Universal Law of One. Freedom, Fraternity, and the Sovereign Right of All Beings to be a Knower of God Source is protected by the Collective Unity Vow shared among our Universal Guardian Groups.
The Group Unity Vow Decree Defender Warriors of Truth, Sovereignty, Liberation. All Guardian races Serving the One. From Across All the Multiverses We Call Upon You to Join US Now. Our Unification Principle deemed as demonstrated in the waves of Omni Love - We Sound our Group Note to You Now. Our Group Template Updated, Individually and Collectively, Renewed and Forever Perpetuated in the Eternally Sustained Light. Our Alchemical Container is consecrated and dedicated to the Purposes of One, and we endeavor to be the Knower of God to then be the Way Shower of God. Sustain Us in the Eternal Power of our Consecration.
We have called for your Gatekeeping in order to hold our community, our missions, our mutual highest purposes in Service to the One Light, Our Source, The Living Light Code. Our Intention is Unification - The Christ Principle - as an Energetic Reality, Here and Now.
We request the handshake of our community to fortify our
spiritual links through
the Universal Cosmic Triad, and into The Core of One, the Zero Point God
that which is the source of our Genesis. With deep reverence for all of
Dear God, Breathe your Life Codes into all created form. We set our
now to be Remembered to That Which We Are, fully completely and totally.
To State our Mutual Purpose as One, Resurrect All inorganic patterns to the Organic Living Light Now. And to that we Say, Thank God We Are The Cosmic Christ!
And so It is. Lovingly Decreed.
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© 2009, Lisa Renee