So, was I a Service to Self in disguise? Seems like it, for I still had ambitions of my own, which had nothing to do with pleasing others. Of course those didn't materialise, which someone told me was because there still was attachment involved. Might very well be possible, but how on Earth can you wipe that out? Only possible avenue to pursue here feels to me like going cold turkey on the Service to Self: simply tearing up all your wish lists, and replace it with one Prime Directive: to do only that which is Service to Others!
Might seem ridiculously radical, but hear me out: When you believe in Source, like me, there simply is no way Source will treat anyone unjustly. Certainly not someone who is Service to Others. And we might be tearing up those lists, to symbolise our non-attachment, but you can bet your bottom dollar there is a backup somewhere, of anything you ever wished for. What this does is make your life a whole lot simpler: rather than wreck your mind from time to time which of your wishes will be coming true, all you have to do is wait for the opportunies where you can dispense Love, without being attached to any outcome... Surely, in your passed life sofar, you've already wished everything you could ever imagine, right?
I can tell you, reaching this decision has brought much needed rest to my mind and heart. With Life reduced to one single simple rule, what can go wrong? Actually, that was the matter with the saying of Buddha that is on my wall:
"The secret of Health for both Mind and Body is not to mourn for the past, worry about the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the Present Moment wisely and earnestly"
Notice how worry is like the double edged sword here? You can worry about 'bad' things happening, but also about 'good' things not happening. But this only pertains to Health. Sounds to me like we have a few important pieces missing here: What about the more up-beat aspects of Life? What's the use of Health, if you have no fun? Now I'm terrible at fun: no parties, no dancing, my idea of fun is a good conversation with an interesting partner. But I almost never go out looking for them, because I'm sure that if I do, I find the wrong ones. But over time, not looking for them has landed me dozens of friends that had their influence at crucial times in my life. So much so, that I can claim this to be the right approach for me, along with my new rule of "Others first, and Source will take care of Me"
Loving the simple life,
Having a coffee just now after having done the dishes, and spending almost an hour on cleaning the toilet (including the little room it is in), I came to consider that Service to Self sucks bigtime! Not only must you find a selfish based reason to justify each and every one of your actions, but that also goes for the actions that need doing, but where you have no incentive to do them for yourself.....
Let's take cleaning the toilet for one: I'm not overly hygienophobic (or whatever the word is): Others will talk about the state of my toilet before I even feel a need to clean it up. I'm not a dirty old man, just not that panicky about germs, because I don't believe their reputation of being there to make us sick. There are for instance plenty of examples where germs actually clean up polluted water...
But hey, back to the toilet: imagine that the above one needs cleaning. Now if you are a Service to Self kinda guy, and somebody would ask you to volunteer for this latrine duty, how would you justify wanting to do it? It can't be because you could then use a clean toilet yourself, because it is way too big. You might be wanting to impress one of the female elephant keepers, but let's say there aren't any. Now doing it to please the elephant would be the most obvious Service to Others answer, but obviously being Service to Self you can't use that.....
Obviously this challenge is too much, so let's not be too hard on the StS people: let's make it their normal toilet at home, which they also use. Now at least they can give the reason of wanting to go to a clean toilet, but that reason would still have to be more urgent than their dislike of cleaning toilets. Service to Others people on the other hand can immediately mention a handful of others they'd love to clean that toilet for: the frequent visitors of their home! Service to Self people can do that too, but they'd have to care about the fact that the others might appreciate a cleaned toilet...
So in effect, there are always tradeoffs, but the tradeoffs in the Service to Self case are more complex. Thus, the people that want to keep life simple, usually go for Service to Others!
Love your Simplicity,
but off our collective butts to get even! It's aim is 2057 million views, and 2057 being significant in my mind (the year I 'die'), let's make it reach that number well before that year......