Thursday, October 30^th, 2003, 20:21

Somebody lied to me today, but both he and I Know it: Henk told me today his Thursday meetings are going to end, so I won't be able to continue visiting his psychic hour.

In case you hadn't guessed, Henk is a psychic. He is the guy who helped me realize about the vow I'd made at age eight, to figure out the Cosmos, and tell everyone who will hear about it. I'm glad he did, especially from the viewpoint of where I am now, finishing the novel that will be the culmination of this life's work.

Henk magically appeared as a friend of a friend of a colleague of my wife, in a moment where I desperately needed him. The first night he told me my soul was aligned someway half outside my body, but he wouldn't fix it. Instead, he had me fix it myself! Make-belief, hypnosis, name it what you want, but that night I felt better than I had in years!

Henk held what he called his Thursday meetings, and invited me to come. No entrance fees or anything, although some of us sometimes brought cookies to go with the ever abundant coffee. When one day I offered him fifty euros for his services, he looked at me and merely asked: “Why are you doing this?” in a non-incriminating manner.

Lying on the table, Henk taught me to recognize the flow of energy throughout my body, and he kept trying to teach me to breathe properly. In that, he seemed not to succeed, or did he: I've always been a shallow on-demand breather. Just couldn't stick to his program of deep, belly-based breathing.

And he asked me to write. Write manually, while in fact I dislike my own handwriting. I did it, but for serious writing like this novel I still stick to hammering it out on the keyboard. Maybe my disregard for his lessons is what eventually got him to call it “Class Dismissed!”, but I don't think so.....

One last experiment I remember around that time happened around that time, was an outing to the local kids farm with my family. I was very occupied with my being, and while the kids played, I was sitting on a bench in the Sun. A fly came up to me, and landed on my right leg, just above the knee. I figured, if my vibration was OK, I'd be able to approach it sincerely, without disturbing it.

I moved my left hand, index finger outstretched, to the vicinity of it's bulging faceted eyes, quite slowly. Do you know how hard it is to approach a common housefly from the front, to within one millimeter of it's head? I did succeed however, and we sat there for seconds, face to 'face'.

Finally, I broke the magic by becoming greedy, and carefully nudged its head. The fly got up, and landed just out of range of my hand, as if to say: “OK, I know your boundaries now....”

When I later told Henk about it, he applauded me for having made so much progress. And when he stopped seeing me on Thursdays, he offered his help for anything I might require later on. Well Henk, I'd love to send you this manuscript, but by now I think you will somehow magically get your hands on it when the time comes....

Saturday, April 17^th, 2010, 04:42

Today I am somewhat in conflict, but in a good way. I'm going to break my word in a manner of speaking, but only because I know Jolene will forgive me, in a way will even silently applaud me for it!

Just like I Knew Henk, the psychic that helped me at age 35 to remember my vow at age eight, was lying when he told me his Thursday meetings were ending, I just Know Jolene meant just about the complete opposite of what she told me: she asked me not to tell anyone about her life, but I'm sure she'll absolutely not mind that I tell this story anyway, with the proper precautions to achieve what the business end of the world would call 'Plausable Denyability', or in other words, a bit of white lying magic to protect the innocent.

I met Jolene on the train the other day, quite by incident, and very nicely. Somehow, I felt very, very connected to her, even though she turned out to be a person who had an uncanny ability to tell me exactly what kind of a person I am! Or maybe just because of that, because with her, my Know-indicator was on the blink.

But despite the obvious connect, she kept her distance. We did exchange addresses, and over the next few weeks, she phoned me a couple of times, just to hear about how I was doing, and what was up in my life. Jolene felt very awesome, kinda like Selina, even though with her there was this barrier, which both of us kept intact: externally, she was the kind of person I'm not really attracted to, which was aggravated by the fact she tried convince me that our relationship was purely business (which is kind of a dirty word to me).

She claimed she needed help with her computer, and one day, I was invited to provide said help. I traveled there at the appointed hour, and walked the last few hundred meters from the bus to her home, or at least the address she gave me. It was in a well to do neighborhood, all privately owned homes. I rang the bell, and was invited in, only to find myself in a pigsty! I mean, she'd warned me her place was a mess, but I figured it to be like mine sometimes is, for lack of futuristic domestic droids. This however looked far worse, and my first instinct, which I immediately followed, was to offer her to help clean things up a bit. She wouldn't hear of it however, claiming she'd gotten me in there to help her along where the computer was concerned.

So I sat down, amidst a flurry of newspaper clippings, partially opened mail, and other 'messy' things. Nothing really gross, just this consistent wrapping of disorder that I could easily ignore in order to get my work done. She wanted a general cleanup of her computer, like I've done dozens of times for myself and others. Defrag, cleanup, remove unused software, install basic stuff needed to do proper work, you know the drill. So did I, or so I thought...

I'd seen she used Outlook for her mail, but also observed that her Word and Excel where complaining about needing an installer CD to be usable. I usually resort to public domain software wherever possible, and so gave her the option of having OpenOffice installed, instead of those office applications. She agreed, not realising like I should have, that her Outlook was part of the Microsoft Office I was aiming to replace. We chatted on, while she made us something to eat in a kitchen that to me would have been barely unacceptable as starting point for cooking activities.

It was a home-brewn soup, as she called it, quite tasty, but too many unknown ingredients to be on my list of favorite dishes. I somewhat too ardently refused seconds, but we parted as friends. Then, after I'd gotten home, she called that her E-mail no longer worked. Realizing my colossal blunder I gladly took the blame, but was relieved she didn't expect me to get back on the train right that instance. I did offer to attempt a rescue using TeamViewer, so I could take over her system from home, but being a self-proclaimed digifobe, she declined that. She did get another friend to call me later, to dissolve the matter via phone.

But then there's the little incongruities that trigger you to the weirdness of the situation: though Jolene claimed she was afraid of computers, I counted no less than three systems in her home: the computer I needed to work on, an IBM Thinkpad carelessly lying around, and a Compaq DeskPro system in one of the bedrooms. Add to that the question she'd asked me about purchasing Val's old laptop, and I guessed myself in the twilight zone.

Speaking of zones: even though she and I were in the zone constantly, I was very near the edge of my comfort zone while in that place. To me, a home needs to be somewhat cleaner to be comfortable, but it was Jolene's home, so I kept abiding by her will, and tried not to disturb the flurry of newspaper clippings that so cozily surrounded me.

Yesterday, I mailed her to inquire if her friend's rescue operation had succeeded. I got back a mail, so it obviously had: she said she wasn't angry or disappointed, but told me not to mail, phone, or try to contact her otherwise.

Now I could mourn the loss of a friend, but this sounded way more like: “School's over, class dismissed!”

Final sync: I just found out Rush are on their “Time Machine Tour”! How very syncy that they are mentioned in various places in this Now Time Tale......

a message from Jesus/Jeshua channeled by Judith Coates

Thursday, 8 April, 2010 

 

You have prophecy now that there is going to be a big change upon holy Mother Earth in the year 2012, as it has been called. You have found all kinds of channeled information about it, and this is wonderful, because you are bringing it forth for yourself in order to sit with it and see what your truth is about the year 2012.

You do not have to accept anyone else's truth; that is their truth. You choose for yourself what feels true to you and what you want to experience. Because, you see, the year 2012 has not been written yet -- even though you may have the "wise ones" who are channeling all of the information about what is going to happen.

But I say unto you, 2012, 2011, 2010 has not been written yet. Even what you see as the morrow has not been written yet. You are the makers of what you experience. You are the makers who are the judge and jury of everything that you bring forth, and as it is written in your holy Scriptures, that whatever you create, call it good, because truly, everything is good, even if it has the appearance of being a disaster. It will lead, and it has led, the holy Child to a place where you can make a new choice.

You have chosen some great challenges and some smaller challenges in order to live your divine being. It was the same for me: would I travel to far lands to study with the great masters of that time, would I teach the multitudes or just the few, would I experience the crucifixion and arise up in the resurrection to continue that lifetime? These were some of the choices I looked at in that lifetime.

Take yourself back…in this moment, allow yourself the deep breath, and allow yourself to go back to the being that you have been in the Atlantean time when you were the creator bringing forth new creative inventions, when you were working with crystals, and when you were finding what crystals could do as you were knowing Oneness with the energy of a crystal.

Allow yourself to feel how you felt and to see the goal that you had in that lifetime as to how you wanted to use the energy of the crystals. Some of you in a particular lifetime saw the energy of the crystal to convey to you personal power. Others of you saw the healing energy of the crystal and how it could be used for healing. 

In the last couple of moments you have traveled, as your historians measure time, back many, many eons of time to a realization, a reality that is true; it is legendary according to some of your history books, if it is mentioned at all, but it is true. It is a true reality that you have lived. You have been there.

You have also walked the path of peace with nature in Lemuria. Feel you that peace and know that that peace of nature can be found yet. Some of your trees which have been growing for centuries of time, allow yourself to sit with them in the mind and sometimes with the physical body, and to ask of them what they have seen, and what they would advise for the future.

Everything is open to you. Everything. There is nothing that is held away from you. There is nothing that would be denied. It cannot be denied the holy creative Child that you are. That is why I encourage you to go for it, to live your dream, to ask of yourself what is your dream. What do you want to see happening in your own life? What do you want to see happening with the grouping of friends? What do you want to see upon the face of our holy Mother, the Earth?

You are a great master. You have chosen to be in this reality at this time, just as you have chosen many other times when there would be a turning of an age, a time of awakening. You have said, "I want to be there for the quickening of the energy. I want to be there to add my energy to it."

You are a courageous master. You have come from the place of the heart. That is what the root of the word courageous comes from--coeur--the heart. You come from the heart to serve the Light, to serve the awakening one more time.

The measure of a master, and the measure of mastery itself, is very simple. The measure of mastery is in the time that it takes you to be in the place of turmoil, to understand the place of confusion, and then to come to peace. Sometimes it may take you a decade or longer. They call it a certain stage of life. You may have to live through a certain stage of life. Other times it may take you a couple of weeks. Other times it may take you only a deep breath, and then you come to that place of peace that says, "Whatever happens is good, because it serves the atonement. Whatever happens, I add my energy of knowing the blessedness of it, and therefore it is good."

So if you want to know the measure of how you as a master are coming along with this journey, if you want the progress report, you can do this for yourself easily. When you get into that place where you do not know what to do, or you feel that everything seems to be at sixes and sevens and nothing is working together, allow yourself the deep breath and come to the place of peace. If it does not happen right away, that is okay. Take another deep breath and ask for peace. If it takes you an hour, a day, a fortnight, even a year to be at peace with something, that is okay. That is the measure of mastery.

If you would cast your mind back to a decade ago when you were in a certain situation and there was perhaps an issue that was very close to your heart and it hurt, now you look at it and you see it differently. You can see the blessing that has been in it and the goodness in it, even though at the time, a decade ago, it might have been very painful.

The measure of mastery can happen with the deep breath in an instant, or it may take longer, and that is okay. There is no judgment, because truly there is no time. In this reality there seems to be time, but in truth, it does not matter if it takes you lifetimes before you have lived a certain situation over and over and over and then finally come to a place where you have said, "It really doesn't matter. It really doesn't affect me at all, what ‘they' choose to do."

But sometimes in a lifetime it seems very important what "they" have chosen to do, and you can feel very hurt by what they have chosen to do. But then you can come to a place where you say, "But that touches me not. It is their choice. It is what they see to be important that they need to do," and you can let it go.

The measure of a master can be measured by how long or short a time it takes you to come to that place of peace. It can be done, as I said, with the deep breath. It can be done with the candle. If you are wanting something tangible, light a candle and look into the flame, the energy of the candle, and know yourself to be that light, for truly, you are the one creating the light of the candle. In truth, that candle does not exist except as you have brought it forth in your consciousness.

Now, the world does not say that to you. The world says that if you touch the flame, you are going to feel it. But that is the teaching of the world, and you can go beyond that. You have seen ones snuff out the candle flame with their fingers, and you wonder, "How can they do that? That's fire. How can they snuff out that flame with their fingers?" You have thought, "If I did that, it would be too hot."

But if you are in a certain state of mind and you reach out and you squeeze the flame, you can extinguish it with no harm to the fingers. It is the state of mind, the consciousness that makes the difference. However, I would suggest that as you develop trust in knowing the shift in consciousness, for the first few times you snuff the candle flame, you wet your fingers first. (Smile) It is the state of mind, it is the consciousness that determines what you see your life to be and how you see it to be.  

Some of you have wondered, "Why am I here? I enjoy my life, I enjoy traveling, I enjoy my friends, I enjoy the books that I read, but why am I here? Surely there has to be a reason more than that." It is to be the Light that lifts up the world. It is to be the master in realization and to know that every issue that comes to you, you have invited.

Now, sometimes separated ego does not want to hear that. "I invited this mess? I invited this relationship? I invited all of this abuse? I have invited the illness? I have invited the economic downturn?" Yes, you have, in order to know your divine power, in order to know the divine power of choice to live in a different space.

That is what I have called the measure of mastery, to be able to choose to live in the space of divine love, a space that knows that no matter what the world is doing, no matter what the body seems to be doing, no matter what anyone else is doing, "I am living the I Am Intelligence. I Am Love. I am okay." Start with that one. You can understand that one, the human self. "I am okay." And you are. You are truly more than okay, but sometimes separated ego does not want to go any farther than that, so you can start with, "I am okay…I think." And you are.

Allow yourself in every day to celebrate your Self. And by that, I mean to look back over the challenges, the experiences of this lifetime and to see where you have come. See where you were a decade ago. And separated ego may say, "Well, a decade ago I was younger. I was prettier; I was more handsome. I had more golden coins. I had more of the worldly accolades…" Maybe yes, maybe no.

But as you will assess the measure of mastery, you will realize that now you can come to the place of peace much more quickly than you did previously. You can come to the place where you are okay with whatever anyone else chooses. You are okay with whatever the body brings to you. You are okay with every issue, because you know that you are more than any issue.

Some of the issues feel like big stumbling blocks. You lose a loved one and they do not send you a post card, and it feels big. But the master of you--and you are a master--comes to know that that experience was not a downer. It was not a minus sign, but a plus, and you look at all of the treasure that came from whatever issue you have dealt with or are dealing with. You look at all of the expansion of experience that it brings to you instead of looking at all that you have lost, because truly you never lose anything anyway.

You look at all of the positive things that have come out of that experience, all of the treasures that you have stored away in the treasure chest, and only you know those treasures. You can open that treasure chest and you can take out each jewel and look at it and say, "This is the jewel that came from when my parents left. This is the jewel that came when my mate left. At the time I thought it was a piece of coal, an old stone, an old rock. I would have thrown it away, but something told me to put it in the treasure chest. And now I see that there are sparkles on it, and it looks different to me."

That is the measure of the master: to be able to see the good very quickly in everything that you experience. As you travel the journey of life, there are many opportunities to judge; to judge self: that is the first one. You have been taught, even subconsciously, by the parents and the peers that you were not quite good enough. Maybe you did not make the cheer-leading squad. Maybe you did not make the first string of the football team. Maybe you were not the best orator. Maybe you did not get the highest grades, etc.

The peers would tell you whether you were good enough or not good enough, and the parents--even the most well-meaning parents--would encourage you to do better. And you thought, "Well, if they are saying that I should do better, that means that I'm not there yet, I'm not perfect yet, so I must be imperfect."

Your heavenly Father/Mother sees you as perfect, because you have to be. You are the extension of that creative Principle. It is neutral. There is no good or bad, less or more. It Is, and there is no judgment in it.

Allow yourself to know that you are the master come once again into this experience to let your Light shine, to be joyful in the face of sorrow, to be comforting to another one and to lift them up with hope.

Know that always I am here for you. If there is no one else who will listen to you, I will listen to you. Always I hear you when you call. Call upon me. I am always here for you. I love That Which you are, because I know That Which you are: the divine holy Child experiencing and expressing as the human one more time. And I give unto you my great respect, my joy, and my love.

So be it.

- Jeshua ben Joseph (Jesus) in expression through Judith