Recently I received an email from a woman named Kimberly who
sent me a wonderful poem that she wrote about her connection with God
after reading CwG. She then asked me if I had any suggestions on how she
should approach her "inner self."
Below is the email I sent
back to Kimberly. I did not intend for it to be, but it turns out that
this is a wonderful little treatise on the practice of . If I
had sat down to write an "article about meditation" I do not think I
could have produced such . However, when our intention is purely
to seek to assist another, I believe we open access to enormous wisdom.
Here is the email that resulted…

My dear Kimberly…

First,
thank you for sending the poem. It is a wonderful expression of your
feelings and your inner truth after reading the CwG material, and it was
a very special gift to receive from you.

As to your request for
individual guidance on how you might approach your inner self, I believe
that you have done so with your poetry. This is one of many ways that
our speaks to us, and I do hope that you will continue to
put pen to paper in this way whenever you feel inspired to do so. A
collection of such verses may one day serve humanity.

To prepare
for such , I want to make the already predictable suggestion
(so predictable, in fact, that you may already be doing this) that you
practice quiet, sitting meditation at least twice a day. Please do this
for at least 15 minutes each morning and 15 minutes each evening. Try,
if it is possible, to set a standard time when you will do this. Then
try to keep to that time. Yet if you cannot keep such a schedule, know
that any time will do, so long as it is at least twice a day, early and
late.

Find a place where you can be absolutely private and alone.
It works for me to be naked, because that removes for me any sense of
"closed-offedness" from the universe, if that makes any sense to you. So
I sit naked, but that is not a requirement, Kimberly. It is just
something that helps me to achieve a state of mind. If sitting without
any clothing on in any way produces discomfort in you, or creates a
state of mind which is not totally open and joyful and at peace, then
wrap yourself in something loose and flowing. But try to not dress in
something that binds or constricts in any way, making you conscious of
something other than your holy self.

When I meditate, I sometimes
sit outside, if it is nice and warm, allowing the morning sun to bake
down upon me, or the stars to sparkle above me. Inside, I sit by a
window and let the dawn sun pour in and the night sky enclose me.

There
is no "right way" to do quiet sitting meditation. (Indeed, there is no
"right way" to do anything.) One may sit in a comfortable chair, or on
the floor, or upright in bed, for that matter. Choose what works for
you. I sit on the floor, usually with no back rest but occasionally
against a wall or something, because floor sitting keeps me more
"present" in the space. If I am too completely comfortable, as in an
overstuffed chair or on the bed, I tend to doze off or fade away from
the moment. When I am sitting on the floor, or outside on the grass,
this rarely occurs. I am totally mentally "present."

Once sitting,
I begin by paying attention to my breathing, closing my eyes and simply
listening to myself inhaling and exhaling. I am in blackness and I pay
attention only to what I am hearing.

When I have "united" – that’s
the only word I can find that fits here – with the rhythm of my breath,
I begin to expand my attention to what my "inner eye" is seeing.
Usually at that point this is nothing but darkness. If I am seeing
images-that is, "thinking thoughts" of something and seeing that before
me-I work to fade those thoughts out, like a "fade to black" on the
movie screen. I turn my mind to blankness. Focusing my inner eye, I peer
deeply into this darkness. I am looking for nothing in particular. I am
simply peering deeply, allowing myself to search for nothing.

Soon,
in my experience, what appears to be a small, flickering blue "flame"
or burst of blue light pierces the darkness. I find that if I begin
thinking about this cognitively-that is, defining it, describing it to
myself, trying to give it shape and form or make it "mean" something-it
disappears immediately. The only way that I can "make it come back" is
to pay it no mind. I have to work hard to turn my mind off and just be
with the moment and the experience, without judging it, defining it, or
trying to make something happen or figure it out or understand it from
my logic center. It is rather like making love. Then, too, for the
experience to be mystical and magical, I must turn my mind off and just
be with the moment and the experience, without judging it, defining it,
or trying to make something happen or figure it out or understand it
from my logic center.

Meditation is making love to the universe.
It is uniting with God. It is uniting with Self. It is not to be
understood, created, or defined. One does not understand God, one simple
experiences God. One does not create God, God simply is. One does not
define God, God defines one. God IS the definer and the defined. God is
the definition itself.

Insert the word Self wherever the word God appears in the above paragraph and the meaning remains the same.

Now,
back to the dancing blue flame. Once you take your mind off it, all the
while keeping your focus ON it, without expectation or thought of any
kind, the flickering light may reappear. The trick is to keep your mind
(that is, your THOUGHT PROCESS) off it, all the while keeping your focus
(that is, your UNDIVIDED ATTENTION) on it.

Can you imagine this
dichotomy? This means paying attention to what you are not paying
attention to. It is very much like day dreaming. It is like when you are
sitting in broad daylight, in the middle of some place of great
activity, and you are paying attention to nothing at all, or to
everything all at once. You are expecting nothing and requiring nothing
and noticing nothing in particular, but you are so FOCUSED on the
"nothing" and the "everything" that someone finally has to snap you out
of it (perhaps by literally snapping their fingers), saying, "Hey! Are
you DAY DREAMING????"

Usually, one day dreams with one’s eyes
open. Meditation is "day dreaming with your eyes closed." That’s as
close as I can come to explaining my experience.

Now the dancing
blue flame has reappeared. Simply experience it and do not try to define
it, measure it, or explain it to yourself in any way. Just….fall into
it. The flame will appear to come toward you. It will become larger in
your inner field of vision. This is not the flame moving toward you at
all, but YOU moving into, and inside of, the experience of it.

If
you are lucky you will experience TOTAL IMMERSION in this light before
your mind starts telling you about it and talking to you about it. If
you have even one instant of this mindless immersion, you will have
experienced bliss. This is the bliss of total knowing, total
experiencing of the Self as One, with all of it, with everything, with
the Only Thing There Is.

You cannot "try" for this bliss. If you
see the blue flame and begin to anticipate this bliss, the flame will
disappear instantly, in my experience. Anticipation and/or expectation
ends the experience. That is because the experience is happening RIGHT
NOW, and anticipation or expectation PLACES IT INTO THE FUTURE, WHERE
YOU ARE NOT.

Hence, the flame seems to "go away." It is not the
light that has gone away, it is you. You have removed yourself from the
moment of Now by placing your thought into what you call the Future.
This has the same effect on your inner third eye as closing your outer
eyes has on your experience of the physical world around you. You quite
literally shut it out.

In my own experience, Kimberly, this
encounter with bliss comes but once every thousand moments of
meditation. Having known it once is both a blessing and, in a sense, a
curse, because I am forever wishing for it again. Still, there are times
when I can retreat from the wishing, remove myself from the hope,
desert my desires, reject my expectations, and place myself totally in
the moment, utterly without anticipation of anything in particular. This
is the mental state I seek to achieve. It is not easy, but it is
possible. And if I achieve it, I have achieved mindlessness. Nirvana.
Bliss.

Now, a moment ago I referred to the experience of making
love. I did this for a reason. This can be a wonderful training for
those who find it difficult to undertake the journey to mindlessness in
quiet meditation.

If you have an intimate partner, you may find
that the experience of sexual union is an extraordinary opportunity to
experience the beginnings of the journey to bliss, or mindless oneness.
In your sexual encounter you must retreat from the wishing, remove
yourself from any hope, desert any desires, reject any expectations, and
place yourself totally in the moment, utterly without anticipation of
anything in particular. It is not easy, but it is possible. If you
achieve it, you will have achieved mindless oneness. This is nirvana.
This is bliss.

Then, knowing that such a state is possible, your
next step on the journey is to achieve this state not through physical
union with another, but through metaphysical union with the Self. This
same bliss may be experienced in silent meditation.

Having
experience this identical state of bliss, you will come to know the
REASON that the experience of bliss through physical union with another
is identical to the bliss experienced through union with the Self…

There IS no one BUT the Self.

There IS no "other."

Totally
loving, non-expecting, non-desiring, non-needing sexual union with
another confirms this. Totally loving, non-expecting, non-desiring,
non-needing metaphysical union with the Self confirms this also.

In
your note to me, Kimberly, you said…."If you have any suggestions on
how I should approach my inner self, please feel free to express your
ideas." I have just done so. There are other ideas I have as well. Next,
we shall talk about Walking Meditation.