Monday, August 16, 2010
Remember in the last update when I said…."if we can walk
through this VERY narrow doorway, fully present and completely void of
an agenda, we will experience a major shift on many levels"?
Well, not that I need to tell you, but we are still trying to squeeze
our full-bodied selves through that very small opening. And our success
rate…or the ease by which it happens… has everything to do with the
"completely void of an agenda" part.Truth is, most of us want through that doorway so badly that we are trying e v e r y t h i n g we can think of to bust down that door and get the hell out of Dodge.
We’re being forced through sheer frustration to find our way out of this
paradoxical box we’ve locked ourselves into…forced into surrendering
to a new way of seeing and doing things, to accessing and using a whole
new set of tools in an entirely new realm of human experience.
Trying and Prying
The last few weeks…but days especially…feelings of hopelessness and
desperation abound. We have been frantically trying to access this
portal to our new lives, scraping our nails against the grain, in search
of even the tiniest clutch hold that will offer us the ability to pry
that door ajar.
Each time we find a groove deep enough to leverage the door’s heavy
mass, we lose our grip, the door slams shut and we fall back into our
old ways, into those old energies that we are fighting to be free of.
Our physical bodies still screaming…"UNCLLLLLLE!"…bucking in
complete defiance of integrating another ounce of light or pushing our
way through one more day without resolve.
But even through all this resistance we are facing, we are being told
that there is, in fact, a door here…and that there IS a way through
it…and at the risk of reusing some played-out platitudes…we just
can’t force it open with our hands, we can only will it open with our
Moving forward through this "active death zone" requires that we release
all mental and emotional resistance to it….that we settle fully and
completely into the present discomfort so that we can feel our way to
the other side. It’s almost as if this doorway exists only for those
who don’t want it…but more appropriately, this doorway exists only for
those who don’t "need" it.
Which brings us back to the age-old anomaly….how do we NOT want something that we so desperately want?
And the answer is always the same…we have to release attachment to our desires…to let go by surrendering into complete acceptance of what-is.
It’s not as if we will lose our heart-felt desires on the other side,
its that they must be unplugged, upgraded, rewired, fine-tuned and
completely free of human attachment.
The Arcturians are telling me that…"there was a time when each of
you were guided to the space of no space when you would more
effortlessly release yourself from bondage. But now, in the final hours
and through feeling the building desperation of wanting so badly to
move forward, you are unable to find and settle into that same sense of
Gee, you think??? Now granted, I am just as guilty of this as the average idiot who agreed to this half-baked journey…wait, did we agree to this?…but somehow,
by some obnoxious force greater than our own, we still. can’t. give.
up. We HAVE to remember…now more than ever…that beneath the
death-like fatigue and disconnection, we still have the power within us
to push through these gateways… only its so easy to lose sight of this
in the mounting frustration of our relentless stuck-in-the-mudness.
And if that weren’t a tall enough order, we must also realize that this
frustration also has its divine purpose…it is the building momentum of
sheer desire for something better that is accumulating like the
pressure of a combustion engine applying irrational force to our
refurbished pistons so we can be catapulted forward into our new lives.
So even though we are far beyond exhausted and weary…we are still
being urged to remember that there is always a way to peace…but to
access this space requires a shift in perspective… a release…a
surrendering…and a letting go of unparalleled proportion.
I recently mentioned that this letting go process was very similar to physical death in that we must first release all emotional attachments to get to the other side where love will abound in greater measure.
just as with all endings, the desire to hold on eventually begins to
wane and we are left facing the uncertainty of "what’s next?"
Right now we are at the stage of releasing the deepest layers of human
attachment, and that includes the desire to hold on any longer as well
as our long-time companion…HOPE. From a higher perspective, hope is really just resistance in disguise.
It’s a candy-coated expression of doubt, discomfort with uncertainty,
dissatisfaction with what-is, and an inability to surrender into full
Because we are stepping so fully into our authentic selves, we are
losing our strength and ability to hold onto to anything…and hope is
the last to go. Contrary to Forrest Whittaker’s vision in
1998…hope-doesn’t-float here. In fact, it will sink us if we try to
So don’t be alarmed or confused if you can’t muster up the energy to
be-lie-ve in the outcome of this journey anymore…your not supposed
to. We literally can’t take hope with us because it’s too dense.
Essentially, hope is a derivative of lack…of not-having, but
wanting…of incompleteness…and it simply cannot be upheld in the
higher frequencies of wholeness. Where we are going, hope is
transformed into knowing and peace comes with presence when we are in
full acceptance of what is, without wanting anything to be different.
This is the ultimate state of surrender, and the one that is required to
Instead of hoping or wanting things to be different at this point, we
need to take the opposite approach…we need to whole-heart-edly
surrender ourselves so fully into the discomfort of uncertainty that we
emerge on the other side with visceral knowing…assured of our mastery,
and the ability to uphold it.
All illusions/delusions, hopes, dreams, expectations, etc….anything
that we have fabricated in our minds or used as fuel…or carrots!…to
keep us going, or propel us this far, must now be cut loose in order to
fit through that doorway. And just to be clear here…that doorway is
built on the threshold of both endings AND beginnings…when we come
full circle, the end of the old is just the beginning of the new…which
is why they happen simultaneously.
When in doubt, remember that it’s the faithful, not the hopeful, who will rise with the new sun.
And keep in mind that it is not as if we cannot have, manifest or
achieve our heartfelt desires that are burned within our
galactic-genetic blueprints, its that each doorway is getting smaller
and smaller, and to make it through each one we have to leave behind
more and more…to let go of what we perceive we need in order to be authentic and true...where we truly experience with every fiber of our being that we already have it all.
We are officially breaking through the most putrefied layers of sediment
that exist at the deepest layers of our being. We are becoming
completely empty (netural) vessels so that the light of our divinity can
fill in every nook and cranny of our deeply excavated personas.
This deep letting go is bewildering to experience, and it takes us
through the most obscene challenges in facing our mis-creations and
limitations. You may be thinking to yourself…what could we possibly
have left to let go of…and just in that moment, we are faced with the
realization that we are still holding on to the frustration of letting
go! Yes, mastery is a mockery.
(For more detailed symptoms and information check out the TWYH forum.)
The physical proof of our galactic and earthly achievements is coming to
a head, ready to burst open like the deluge of Noah and flood our
vastly empty lives. And though we may feel incapable to be-lie-ve that
truth any longer, the unseens are saying… "let go of that too!"
For those of you out there hanging on by that splitting thread…time to
take the plunge! There is very literally nothing left to hold onto,
and for good reason…because there is nothing on this side that we can
take to the other…the only thing that remains is our trust in that
still quiet voice within…the voice that is pushing us through despite
all the resistance and frustrations that we are up against.
It’s very easy to understand how letting go of the last thread can be a
very freeing experience, but actually doing it…peeling our fingers
from the only things we have left to hold onto…to be-lie-ve in…to
hope for…is a whole other ball game.
Rest assured, we are doing it whether we want to or not. It may not be
pretty…it may not be fun… but somehow, someway, we are getting
through that damn door!
This expansion process very naturally forces us to outgrow our past…to
the point that nothing here feels remotely good or interesting, and
boredom overtakes us as we waddle around in the void, waiting for our
new level of reconnection to take hold. We are so bored here that even
boredom is boring.
And if you’re anything like me then you are especially bored with the
entire process and have absolutely hit your limit with all this
ascension talk, talk, talk. Personally, I can’t even look at the word
any more without wanting to bludgeon myself with a blunt object. Some
mornings I wake up and think, there is just NOTHING left to say…we
can’t possibly talk ourselves through one…more…day….of…this.
And of course, then we do.
This is because we have explored all territory here and are moving
on…oh god please…to a place where we will have new interests, or
revised existing interests, that will finally have fertile soil to
replace the once barren land that disabled the growth of our higher
dimensional dreams. In our new gardens, however, our intentions will
easily take root because the proper balance of nutrients are contained
within the soil to sustain and nourish them.
From mid-August to early September we will continue to assimilate this
huge expansion that is propelling us out of our old lives…albeit with a
bit more connection… and into the new framework by which we will
operate. You may find that sudden endings are immediately replaced with
new beginnings and that much of it is happening with or without your
involvement. This as it should be as.
I am hearing that for the next few weeks we will be intermittently
accessing new realms. Kind of like newborn souls trying to ground in
the lower dimensions during the beginning stages of incarnation…and of
course sleeping like them too…one day we may make it through to the
other side, and the next we may be prohibited from entering…but each
time we are successful, we will begin to intimately understand our
ability to create without resistance, and to realize that this is
exactly how it was always meant to be.
So each time you experience suffering, remember that all suffering is resistance to what-is.
There is only one combination to the lock on that door we are all trying
to fit through: surrender-acceptance-acceptance-let go
Each time you reach down and find the ability to embrace the uncertainty, to welcome the discomfort…
Right, left, left, right, CLICK…
To free falling…
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