When I left Sedona, so many weeks ago, it was on the heels of a great epiphany. There had been many challenges releasing the past, deciphering the conditions of my being so as to reclaim my power and return to wholeness. The biggest lesson at that time was the discovery that I knew myself. There was spiritual advice given by someone I respected that I heeded and then witnessed the physical symptoms of a choice that was other than for my highest good. Freedom came when I aligned with my Higher Consciousness and healed the woes of the past that were infecting the present moment. I know myself.
That last statement is most definitively a present moment statement and I have come full circle. I know myself. I did back then and I do now and so the journey continues…
Leaving Sedona on the afternoon of May 27th I was at peace. My life was in a good way and I was on the Loving Timeline. I was in harmony, right mind, right relations, all was good. There was a kiss goodbye that defied all logic… Rather it was a part of the connection to Source, a creation, our lips touched conveying our hearts vibration we shared Love with all that moment.
I jumped in the white Ford Pickup and started what would turn into almost 90 days of pure adventure… Driving up Oak Creek Canyon, who knew I was passing my future home base, green and white with a picket fence… so identical to my then current residence as to be humorous as I look back… The windows open I breathed in the beauty of that drive up the canyon. It filled me with Life and Prana, possibilities.
Wildfire assignments are quite an experience and oftentimes I wonder if many out there even know this world exists. I was en route to support an ongoing incident in northern New Mexico, when my Team was mobilized to the Horseshoe Fire in Portal, AZ. As I interacted with the various people over the phone, I began to see the dynamic that occurs when one doesn’t understand another’s experience. There was tension at times on the other end of the line and for a moment, I let it into my reality and a shift occurred. What was once a joyous experience took on a different tone until I cleared the layers of someone else reality from my being. I didn’t have to take on that experience… I have come to find out.
But at the time, I did and for a while it festered, eating a hole in my energy and allowing for a very significant leak that would rear up from time to time over the 30 day assignment. I can see that now and very grateful for it… However, miles passed by miles and I found myself in Truth or Consequences, NM. Hmmmmm… Ponder that. and If I remember correctly it was a powerful full moon… Yes, and there I was… Contemplating the Truth. I wonder now, if that meditation that evening on the drive propelled me to the place I am now. But, of course it did… I am so a part of creating my reality on the Loving Timeline, I just stay present and aware and it unfolds perfectly before my very senses…
I asked for this experience many years ago. An overwhelming desire to understand the Truth of my existence welled up inside me like the pressure within a seed that bursts it through asphalt to see the glory of the day through transformed awareness, I asked for it and steady helpings of Truth along the way, choices and consequences had guided me to that point where on such a powerful moon, I pondered… It feels as though I reaffirmed my commitment to the path that night, recognizing that this, my first incident as a team member would be interesting and different, as I had changed so much since my last wildfire assignments. I remember a little trepidation, too as it had been a long time.
Could I bring the Truth of my experience to an environment that on the surface seems to bely the notion of Spirituality? Would I be able to hold onto my newly won ideals and beliefs while in a high energy, fast-paced and dangerous environment? Could I continue to stay on the Loving Timeline, when in all appearances the situation was other than that?
This was what I pondered in my deep awareness that powerful night… Truth or Consequences… Very appropriate place for me to be with such amazing energies of the full moon. Again, remembering back, I believe that was the beginning of a series of astrological events and alignments that were purported to be extremely potent. To be sure, they were because what unfolded over the next near 90 days was so deeply perplexing to the logical mind that I just had to toss it aside and be present with it all. Casting aside the training for the left brain thinking, the rational mind and the realm of reason I chose to experience the miraculous world of Spirit.
So unfolds a Love Story of epic proportions… A journey to understanding the infinitesimal vastness of the Universe and how Love is at the core. It is a vibration in my heart, in the hearts of every human being and it matches the root vibration of the Universe, of Nature itself in our life experience. It is a journey to Higher Ground, where the air is pure and the water runs deep and clear; where Life is joyful and exuberant in Nature and the Universe abides purposeful Loving intent through thoughts, words and actions.
I found myself on this journey and I Love myself completely… I forgive myself for the indiscretions along the way and continue to learn and grow. I am a spiritual being having a human experience endeavoring to do so with grace and ease. And I am Grateful.