Posted at the Buffalo Diaries on 12/28/2010

 

It has been quite some time since I last sat down to write about this exquisite Soul Journey to Consciousness. I understand now the depth of the time I have created with myself, going into the far reaches of my being to shed the light of my consciousness to the hidden rooms of my Soul House. There were many, still hidden from my view, yet perceptible in my high . These tiny seeds of beliefs that could sprout old, worn out ways and patterned behaviors, still existed within the fabric of my new . I went after them…

The dance has brought about a smoothing of the fabric, allowing me to see the ripples of times gone by. These were the seeds, showing up as ripples in an otherwise seamless experience, they would cause me to bump off the Loving Timeline. Now, to be sure, I was never actually bumped off, but rather my proximity to the seeds, now trying to sprout, caused me to pause and halted the progression on the Loving Timeline. But, this time… Yes, this time, when these long forgotten pains of old came out to be released, I knew what to do… It is ironic that I say this, because I do know what to do, I have been training for 3 years to know what to do and yet there are times when it seems that all is lost and the seeds, rooted in the fabric, become the dominant vibration. That is the illusion, I have come to see.

Have you ever felt that way? Have you ever felt as though you have lost your way?

For the past week and a half, I have chosen to work Soul-y on the fabric of my reality from an energetic standpoint. It began with a selfless act that moved much and physically challenged the very structure of my . 8 hours of total consciousness in motion and action allows for many insights into the depths of ones consciousness and I was able to see and feel the places that needed work. That day launched me into a renewed physical mind, , spirit practice and out came the yoga mat. While I have never left my yoga studies they have morphed and changed with me as I have followed this Shamanic Path. Yoga has been a part of my life for 11 years and I am always amazed when I return deeply to this profoundly healing tool.

I can see the holographic nature of the universe when I go to the yoga mat after time apart. My physical body different for the absence of asana, yet my mind has been honed into a clarity unsurpassed by the hours of Meditation, Shamanic Journey and Soul Retrieval. I am differentthan the last time I came to the mat and I open my practice in this newly expansive place to the vast richness our Creator provides. And so on the heals of said beginning, I ask why I am so different now? Much has changed, transformed and transmuted and I take a moment to reflect upon this. The Solstice…

When I fold into a forward bend the first time after an absence, my body resists… there is holding, energy sticking and not allowing my body to go beyond a certain point, but I can see something different. Known sensations begin to stir and I feel them. They came from other times on the mat, perhaps the last time on the mat when my physical body was very free of blocks, and as those sensations get stronger, I find myself instantly beyond those blocks and deeper into the fold. This is familiar territory and my physical body responds to the sensations, know images in my head… a piece of the hologram. Once I have seen it in my visions and apply intention and energy to it, this small piece of the hologram expands into reality and my hands are flat on the floor in a deep forward fold. My thoughts become reality… my visions become reality… Instantly manifest from within this deep inner place.

The full moon solstice eclipse of 2010 was a very strong astrological alignment that hasn’t been seen for several hundred years and allowed for deep release of aspects of the self. I went into it deeply, as my astrology was right in the midst of the planetary goings on of the solstice. A sacred event it was and I did my best to occupy my time, thoughts, words and actions with Love. However, my revealed, vibrating at a much lower frequency, thus exposing those seeds and it was then that I realized what was holding me back.

Darkness is the absence of light. Consciousness is light. I am light. I am Love. I bring the Light of my Love through Consciousness to the shadow darkness in my being. It is that simple.

And so a series of synchronistic events aligned to assist me in this part of the Journey. It is what I wanted… I asked for this and continue to receive this wonderful blessing.

The asana coming back the day before the solstice began a week long Shamanic Yoga Retreat in my very own living room. I have been on the mat 2-5 hours a day, with several more hours of meditation, journey and soul retrieval. I was shown to bring consciousness to every particle of my being… To journey inward even deeper and light up my whole house. I am doing this… It never stops, a Shaman always seeking to harmonize the energy within. I have gotten much better at it, as the adventure continues. As I entered the hologram of my practice each day, I began to see the shift. Deep restorative postures opening the depths of my being, I peer into these recesses with the piercing headlamp of my third eye. All is revealed…

has come and gone this year and as I experienced it myself, I must say I am grateful for the Christ Consciousness available on the planet today. Forgiveness, such a beautiful tenet, amplified by the time of year, I am grateful to receive such a blessing. It comes because I have shifted. I have forgiven myself and created a vibration within me that is forgiveness. And so it is… I am forgiven. was the most amazing day of consciousness, filled with Love and Joy, we created a container of Love and shared it with the Universe. That energy is still present as I write this and I see it s the Big Yoga that I am experiencing. Unity… Wholeness… Oneness…

And so the consciousness expands and the shadow diminishes, the interplay of light on dark a beautiful experience of expansion and growth. The energy of the Universe greets me in every moment eager to show me what I am open to see, providing a rich experience of holographic nature reflected by the light of my Love for it all. I am grateful.

The mat is calling and the beat is slowing. Calmness and peace flow through my being as I see myself on the mat… feel it in my bones as I begin to stretch my fabric, it smooths to a silky wave of undulating freedom. I am the energy that animates, the Soul meets Body through fingertips divine tapping the keyboard to tell my story…

Namaste.

Marc

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